Breath of Life

Last night I was looking through some pictures of when Jacob was born. I cant believe its been 11 and 1/2 weeks already. It feels like yesterday I was sitting in the glider in Jacobs room when the doctor called and said "we've decided to go ahead and induce you......today". I had waited for that moment since we found out in February 2011 that we were expecting. My heart started pounding, I started shaking, I was getting nervous..... I was about to go through one life changing moment. As I pulled myself together I started rushing around the house to pack last minute things. Once we got checked into the hospital, got in my gown and in the bed I was soon to deliver my son in.....I looked around my hospital room, there the man who was about to become the father of my child, the man I am spending the rest of my life with and my mom, the one who gave me life , who has been there no matter what the circumstance. I hope to be half the mother she is. Little did I know I was already in labor. 28 hours later, after a hard, hard labor, a sleepless night of moaning and pain, 1 hour and 45 minutes of hard pushing, my son was born, and then the most scariest, longest moment of my life....my little boy lifeless and not breathing, he was gray as gray could be, my heart dropped, nothing else mattered but him at that moment. Nurses were running in my room to work on him, he had still yet to take his first breath, I couldn't control myself I became hysterical. Not even my husband could calm me. But then the room got quite and I heard the most amazing sound anyone could imagine.....my son's first breath of life. It was the most calming sound ever. Right then I knew he was something special. My little miracle, my very own angel. I cant thank God enough for him. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think of this day and what happened, what could have happened. He amazes me every day. He is my reason for getting out of bed with a smile on. Every time I look into his eyes my heart just melts. I never knew you could love someone so much you just met.....Never take anyone for granted, you never know who will be in your life tomorrow.

Bucket List

Witness something truly majestic
Experience a total solar eclipse
Take a ride in a hot air balloon
Become a Mommy
Be in two places at once
Win the Lottery
Break in the new year in Times Square
Get Married
Experience zero gravity
Watch my son get married
Horseback riding
Go on a detox diet for 21 days
Learn how to interpret dreams
Own your dream car
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Love

Words can not describe my everlasting LOVE for my husband and son. They are my world my life my everything. I cant imagine what my life was before them. Their both amazing in their own little ways. Jason (my husband), knows how to make me laugh, drives me crazy, holds me when I cry, and loves me unconditionally. Jacob (my son) came into this world with a bang, he cant be more perfect. He's always got me smiling, laughing, crying happy tears of course, and thanking god everyday for my life and his. Especially his. He gave Mommy and Daddy a very BIG scare when he was born. My baby boy wasn't alive. The worst feeling ever. That minute seemed like hours until that moment every mom prays for. That CRY. That cry of reassurance that your baby is ok. That is the most amazing, peaceful sound ever, its indescribable. So grateful and blessed for every minute, second, and day that he is alive on this earth with me.